Loss Makes It's Exit

At some point, loss makes it's still painful exit from your life. 

Part 2

You are still here

You still exist

When you check this time

You are not just here

Not just physically

That’s easy

To suck in and suck out

And say

“Here”

Not only are you “here”

You are sincerely

Here

You breathe in

You breathe out

That’s easy now

But you do more than that

And you are proud of that feat

In and out

Yes and no

Up and down

You ride the ride

A couple times

Just

To ride the ride

But now you ride the ride

And you feel things

Excitement

Dread

Guilt

Strength

Happiness?
Maybe

But one day

You’re lying there

In and out

Chest rising

Chest lowering

And then it happens

Your mouth twitches

Your breath hesitates

And you smile

And then your eyes dart back and forth

As if to overanalyze the fact that your lips just curled upward

In a strange, unique shape

Your face isn’t familiar with

But yes, you smiled

You smiled

And what you smiled at

Might make you smile again
Heaven forbid

It might make you smile over and over again